I'm Stuck

I hope you’re happy, I hope you are well.
I hope so many things for others, but
None for me because all my hopes have failed.

Beyond reality is the only place I find
A respite from my depression and
A brief happiness that is only mine.

But I wish not to dream, so I do not sleep
All my thoughts drift to you and then
Reality fills me with sadness that drives deep.

I want to stop these daydreams of mine
For it hurts to miss you but you don’t care,
And that’s a realization isn’t kind.

If only I didn’t dream about and miss,
Our conversations, our jokes,
The way you held me when we kissed.

I don’t know what I can do
To move beyond all this
Regain hope and forget you.